ALWAYS, I WANNA BE WITH YOU

What could be more exciting than a whole day spent with friends? NOTHING. I had lunch with half of the OC (Toni, Triccie, and Bea) yesterday. I look at you guys and realize how much we've grown, I am tearing up as I write this. Gym next week, okay? Ki also treated me, Franco, and Zia to a movie and dinner. The money was with me, and it just feels so good to just spend money that isn't yours, while pretending (in the back of your mind) the it is and showing the waiters and cashiers what a good sister you are, treating your siblings to a movie and buying them "whatever they want".

Me: Hi, Shobs, what do you want?

Zia: I'm thirsty.

Me: Starbucks?

AND

Me: Hey, guys, let's go to Fully Booked, ONE ITEM EACH LANG HA?

AND AND

Me: Let's get munchies before the movie! Go get whatever you want! Eto lang?! Miss, magkano lahat?

The best part is fishing my wallet out of my bag and paying. WAAAH, good feel.

In the movies, we were seated beside little kids accompanied by their Lola.

Moron Kid: LOLA! NATUTULOG KA NA BA?!

KID, HINDI SASAGOT ANG LOLA MO. TULOG NA YAN, TRAILER PALANG--HABANG NAG-IINGAY KA AT SINUSUNDAN MO ANG PAGKANTA NG "CHIHUAHUA". MANOOD KA NALANG PWEDE? KUMAKANTA NA SI ZAC EFRON. (Pero malamang, I didn't say this because kids love me and I wanna leave it at that).

So, there, we watched the gay-est movie ever.

Pong and Ib visited last night and they stayed until late! Watch out for the video, inspired by kevjumba on Youtube. Ever since Triccie linked me to the funniest guy in the face of the planet to date, I have been fantasizing about marrying him and having interracial babies because I am Caucasian (and because he is open to it!) HA HA HA HA HA! But then, I'm also an advocate of Family First, I take in consideration the stand of his gullible dad about NOT having interracial babies. So, then I fantasize about being his wife and having cute, little Asian babies--THAT'S WHEN THE ASIAN PART COMES IN. HI, I AM ASIAN.

Okay, that's all. I should think of something to blog about.

Cheerios, Papitos!

BEST OF LUCK

I had a rough start this year and going through the months of drawbacks, resentment, and whatnot would usually make me feel like this tiny person who didn't deserve anything. The weird thing is, I am doing pretty fine. I've been waiting for so long to finally say that I AM DOING FINE. The problem is, I tell people that I'm an optimist but in reality I am the opposite (which I doubt because being a pessimist would seem like an understatement). I am afraid of failure, imperfection, and anything that would trigger criticisms, but I've realized that sometimes there are things (and/or people) that would drag you to those things that you've been avoiding ever since you've learned basic Geometry (in my case, the 1st grade). 

I know I've slacked off during the first semester and I know I've flipped my head over by receiving failing marks due to mediocrity. And I think to myself, is this the end of it? Well, let's just wait for the DEV grades to come out. Seriously, though, I regret the times when I'd doze off, sulk around, and stare into space when I could've pried into my readings more. But another part of me does not. It's weird but I am laughing my ass off when I think of the moments when I've completely bombarded my friends' ears about my "suck-y life" and "why can't things go my way speech". I am sorry that I almost had to literally stitch your ears back into place. Although they shouldn't trust me with the stitching, I am having problems with which one is LEFT and RIGHT.

Point is, this break has given me time to relax and think for a tad bit. And whatever happens, so what?!

HAPPENINGS

Barely a day in Manila, I had to travel to Quezon for Kong-kong's Birthday Bash. I spent 2 days there and I am finally back in Manila. I will go back to Quezon on Friday. OOOH, TINODO KO ANG SEMBREAK, HUWAG LANG LALABAS ANG MGA GRADES. :(

On the 25th, Lola Tessie, Tito Darwin, Mom, Me, and Stacy and Joanna (a.k.a. Itlog girls), went to different barangays in Mauban to give away tickets for Kong-kong's  Birthday Give-away.

Here are some photos.

Sorry, XLZ. People were banging and trashing.

Lola T!

Father and daughter by the water!

My new friends.

It is actually an injustice to just briefly run through this experience. I am just doing this because it's taking forever to upload the Bacolod photos. But I'll do it in my own time. I am just so thankful for what I have after seeing these things.

Cheerios!

BACK FROM THE CITY OF SMILES

I AM BACK! Although it's good to be back home, I am missing my friends and Bacolod ever so much. I've made some progress because I can understand Ilonggo already but I can't speak Ilonggo--let's just say, I can't express myself. 

I want to thank Tito Boy and Tita Stella  for adopting me. God, I've gained so much! Also to Anna, Anj, and Anton.

I miss my girls, Kat, Anj, and Ib! Waaah, you guys are the best!

Here are some of my favorite photos from my trip:

Something for my blog taken at a day trip to Lakawon-- Carouselambra by Led Zep

In the middle of the Lacson Street for the Masskara. 

We were one boat ride away from Agutaya (Pipoy's island). Breathtaking!

Waiting for the boat with my favorite girls!

I was just taking photos during the 3-hour car ride to Kabankalan.

I will upload some more later.

I'm going to Quezon na!

Cheerios, Papitos!

SURE, 'DAY

BACOLOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE ATTEMPT

So, I tried to pack for my trip to Bacolod (which I am really excited for) but all I got was a messier closet! I miserably failed and I have no time to pack tomorrow, I'm pretty sure I'll leave something behind. WAAAH. The photos here only show one side of the room. As for the other side? I decided not to take a photo of it, let alone look at it. I just realized you need inspiration. I have none. 

Okay, goodnight/morning. I'M GOING TO BACOLOD TOMORROW!!!!!! :)

JUST STAND UP

After my FIL103 final, I rushed home because I felt like something was not right. I was about to press the elevator button when it the doors opened, only to see my parents and my aunt--all wearing black. I KNEW SOMETHING WAS WRONG. That's when they told me that my Lola passed away that morning. We rushed to the funeral parlor and the rest is history. The details are still difficult to write about as I remember every single conversation we had that day, October 12th, 2006. I miss my Lola. She was sweet and loving (and treats me like a princess whenever I got to Bulacan). She would change the sheets because she knew that I would be curling up on her bed with a good book and then fall asleep. Everytime I had a Christmas Party in school, she would be the one to cook the chicken assigned for me to bring. I MISS AND LOVE YOU. She passed due to cancer. I know she's watching over me. Always. I miss your house, Lola. It's funny how the house seems to be gloomy but sometimes it's as if you're just there. WE MISS YOU.

TAMA BA?

When boiling water, you have to put water on the pot, and place the pot on the stove, then light up the stove?

PUFFY

It's 1:17 am and I just HAD TO change my topic for ComPol. How very brilliant! OMG.

THE COMET

Later is too soon. Tomorrow is too uncertain. And forever is too much of a dream.

Lindsay told Lucas that she'd wish he'd told her over the phone. What difference would it make? I mean, she still did something about Chicago.

Pff.

UNEVEN

I just noticed that my face is uneven. I know that our faces are naturally asymmetrical and that only a few have symmetrical faces like, Yoanna House. This is no Yoanna House.

Maybe it's because I do nothing but frown all the time. Or maybe it's because I tried to put two (actually three but it won't do) Ferroro Rochers in my mouth. You know, just for the hang of it. Or maybe it's God's way of telling me that I look like a bullhorn.

Okay. I've been reading my entries and most of them are crap and some are just one-liners. They're so stupid. I've been stressing over school but what stresses me out all the more is not being able to lessen the pile of my "to-do". Oh, dear. 

Or maybe it's because I literally fall asleep on my readings and drool all over it. I wake up in the morning and the whole reading would stick to that "BIGGER" side of my face. Ooooh, I wonder what makes them stick. EW.

Cheerios, Papitos. I'm waiting for John, Carlo, Pong, and Anj to arrive.

IRON CHEF

I just cooked my first pancit canton! I just realized I didn't know how to boil water. I am so proud.

RRRRR

I have been such a busy bee this week (DAW). I'm in the course of "doing" my paper and I'm actually thinking of not passing it. I mean, I'd rather watch FRIENDS until I doze off. RRRRR, I don't wanna study anymore. Mother took me to iGig and shoe shopping (I took her there, rather).She picked me up from school because "naawa siya sa akin, matagal na daw ako hindi nagsh-shopping. Mukha ba akong "mukhang shopping"? HINDI. ANNNNNDDD Ta-da! Clooney has a new look. Thanks, Ma, nahiya na talaga ako. But she says that I deserve it after a week of not being able to sleep. Tignan nalang natin sa grades. Baka hindi na ako i-shopping ever! 

To pass or not to pass?!

IMMIGRANTE

Answer this: Why are we on the dark side? HA!

This video is for our WorkSoc presentation on "Immigration". We decided to do a "press conference"--Kam and Anj as the reporters, me as the author of the book, "Immigrante", and BJ as the director/producer of the film. Please watch the movie! HA HA! Feel! When I grow up... this film will be a sure-hit, winning multiple awards at the Cannes Film Festival.

Cast: 

Angela Villavicencio- doctor turned nurse (U.S.)

Trizia Lim- caregiver (U.S.)

Kamille Untalan- teacher (Canada)

Benjamin Loong- battered, bullied, and unemployed (France)

Special thanks to: Sean Go

BOOM

Pop and Ki picked me up awhile ago. Thanks for the top! Ha ha. Okay, so I was driven by some whim, I decided: I'm getting a new look. So, I had them drop me off at the salon. I was supposed to sleep the entire afternoon but no. And I was nervous about this, um, transformation because I dyed my hair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Eh, ayoko pa naman magpa-dye before!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Okay. My face looks thinner, so okay lang! Double purpose bangs ko, salamat sa stylist! It's my first time in ten years na merong nag-gupit na bangs ko, ako lang kase nag-gugupit! PWEDE NA AKO MAGPA-RENEW, SA WAKAS! 

Apparently, Clara remembers my hairstyle before! Ha ha! AYOS!

ROCKIN' OH-OH

I don't know what to say but these rockin'!  Ha ha! I love it! Thanks, Ki! I owe you a million.

CheeriOs, PapitOs!

P.S. Patrick, I hate you. Delete me. You're ruining my YM-life. And my sunglasses aren't bigger than my face, they're fine! UNLIKE YOU.

It's 11:11.

THE LONE RABBIT

It's the feeling of depression but not knowing its cause--in my case, causes. I know I have been a toughie lately, ignoring this feeling, whatever it is. I texted Karla: I miss you, Eds. I'm depressed. NOT KNOWING WHY. Perhaps the very reason of my depression is stuck in my subconscious mind and I have been trying my very best to ignore it. I do not have time to entertain depression now as I have loads to do and by blogging, I am able to take a breather. I am not the most religious person on earth for I have done things that would take a long time for me to be sorry for. Let's just hope I make it in time before entering the gates of heaven. For the past week, I have done nothing but whine about the things that I couldn't have. I failed to look at the things that I do have. I am depressed. I am a firm believer of God's miraculous ways. He finds a way to make me understand that I am still lucky, even in the state of (questionable) depression. I was sorting out my mail awhile ago when I came across a forwarded mail that Anj sent on August 31st, which I haven't read until tonight. It was a long message with photo attachments.

But this one struck me the most.

"IF YOU FEEL LIKE GIVING UP, THINK OF THIS MAN"

INDULGE

When someone leaves/betrays you, indulge yourself! Last night, I was talking about Gregory Gronbacher and his works. He left me! After the disastrous report I had earlier. I have decided. SCREW MY, UM, DIET AND FEAST ON THE BOX OF CHOCOLATES. 

YUMMY!

I HOPE YOU COME ACROSS THIS

I AM NO HATER. AND I TRY MY BEST TO STOP HATIN'.

BUT.

Pasalamat ka at ngayon ko lang nabasa. You have gone overboard and beyond what is not-gay. TANGINA, BAKLA KA, GAGO! Sorry for being happy. Why don't you just live your miserable life with your miserable self? Who are you to judge me? WE'RE NOT EVEN CLOSE. 

AND EXCUSE ME.

I hang out with my friends not because I wanna look cool. I hang out with my friends because they're not like you, you lowly creature.

That was low. Really, really low. I did not expect that from you. HAYOP!

I AM NO HATER. AND I TRY MY BEST TO STOP HATIN'.

IT'S OVER, GREGORY :(

"I just want you to know that it's not you. It's me. You have to let me go. You deserve someone better. And I? I don't deserve anyone at this point. Goodbye. You will always and forever be the love of my life."

HAYUP! My eyes are burning. I cannot turn another page. I am not done with my report on Gregory Gronbacher's Economic Personalism.

Goodbye, Gregory, my sweet honeybee!